The dungeon of DESPAIR


Over the passed couple of weeks, I have gone through a series of events that took a toll on my emotional and mental life. I shared in earlier posts about the highs and lows that almost took me out. I had days that held strong thoughts of just “checking out” and never coming back. I had days where my fight was absolutely no where to be found. I had days where I was so grateful for what was going on that I just cried because I couldn’t believe things came together. I had days of reflection, only to realize that my hurt from the past had not fully healed.


These weeks seemed like months and I couldn’t articulate fully what I was going through….. I had no one to really listen, BUT GOD. I know most of my readers do not have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ and that’s fine. I know that some of my readers do have a relationship with Jesus Christ and that’s fine too.

As I write, I heal.

I have come out of my dungeon of darkness and despair because I know for a fact that GOD LOVES ME. He was holding me the nights I cried myself to sleep and was there in the mornings I didn’t want to move. I’m human and I hurt, I struggle, I feel like life is brutal, but I have hope.

The hope I have rests in knowing personally Jesus Christ who lived, died, and rose again from the grave for me to have life.

Life….. to get out of the dungeon of despair.

Life….. to rest in His arms when words can’t be spoken.

Life….. to have peace in this world we live in.

Life….. to inspire others.

I am in a good place now and I am able to push forward. I still cry because tears are healthy. I know in whom I believe and I can feely strength coming back. I want you to know that life is full of highs and lows, just remember to keep moving forward because you can live again.

Much love,

Beautiful Black Cat


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I absolutely love putting it in writing! When I write I release a part of me that was hidden from the world. For years I would only write to help me navigate through this thing called life, however, writing has become my closest friend. I am a self-published author with a desire to help people know there is always HOPE. Hope for a better tomorrow, hope to live another day, and HOPE TO KNOW LIFE DOES GET BETTER. To my readers, I say "Live FREE and Die WELL" (Quote from the Rock in the movie Scorpion King~lol). Hope is always found in letting go.

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