This is hard to write but necessary, with the hopes of helping myself. A few days ago my god-daddy passed away. He was murdered and no one has any answers. When I was told about what happened, I became numb.
Numb. Numb. Just plain numb.
See I have been blessed to have a biological father and a step father who loved me to life while they were alive. Years ago while telling my god-daddy about my biological father and step-father who passed away, he promptly told me “You gotta daddy now”. This wonderful man never called me by my name since then, he always called me daughter.
He will be deeply missed by many but for me I must admit, I hate the fact that he’s gone. I will never her him call me daughter again because someone took his life.
Numb. Numb. Just numb.
I’ve been down this road before. Step-daddy gone 2000. Biological daddy gone 2002. Now my god-daddy gone 2019…… I would rather feel some pain, cry my eyes out or simply just scream but I can’t.
Numb. Numb. Just numb.
My only consolation is God’s love is holding me together.
God’s love is helping me breathe in and out.
God’s love is keeping my heart together.
God’s love.
God’s love.
God’s love…. My only source of strength.
This to shall pass, however I wish it would pass quickly.
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Much love,
Beautiful Black Cat
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Praying! Our Heavenly Father sees. hears and cares! He calls us His daughters and He will never leave us or forsake us! Our earthly fathers could only give us a glimpse of Who He is – “Our Heavenly Father”! I love you!
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