Remember when you were little and it was easy to find out if someone “liked” you. It was as simple as writing on a piece of paper, do you like me check yes or no. Lmbo! I really don’t have an issue with being transparent because that’s where my healing always comes from. Well folks, you guessed it…..I am digging this man and I just don’t know how I’m going to make it some days. Lol. I have prayed and given it to God, however I get nuthin. No thunder from heaven. No signs or wonders. Nuthin, just silence. I’ve matured enough to know the silence means, stay focused on the task at hand and wait. The real question is, what in the ham fat do I do with what is going on inside of a sister. I pray for this person but the more I pray the more I seem to care.
Lord have mercy on my soul today
I needed to write it out because I know I ain’t by myself. I processed the fear of rejection a long time ago because I know God loves me and that’s not an issue any more. I guess the not knowing how they feel and giving up control in the situation is the hardest thing to do.
This I do know, God is in control and because of His grace on my life I will not take matters into my own hands, I will have and keep my peace in this season.
Enjoy the journey and stay focused. Real love is worth waiting for however while you wait make sure you love yourself.
Beautiful Black Cat