October 4, 2002
That morning I called my daddy to check on him before I got on the bus headed to work. When I left home that morning, he wasn’t feeling great and told me to go to work because he would be ok. I remember right before I hung up, he kept saying “Princess I love you” and I replied, “Daddy I know you do”. Earlier that year I had relocated to Jacksonville, Florida from Chicago, Illinois to be with my daddy who was literally nothing but skin and bones. It was a decision that would change my life forever.
He had come to Chicago for his brothers funeral and while there, asked me to come live with him. Reluctantly I said yes and headed to my new home in Jacksonville with my daughter. We had some great times prior to our phone conversation that morning. After getting off the phone with my Daddy I finally went to work. I remember calling him on my lunch break, no answer. I called a few hours after, no answer. I called and called, no answer. I had decided that it was time to go home to check on my Daddy.
When I finally got to the apartment, I called out “Daddy”, no answer. I called to my Daddy repeatedly, no answer. I remember calling 911 and when rescue came, my life came crashing down. My Daddy was dead. I found the man who was my hero, my friend, my supporter, and so much more dead. He was gone and there was nothing I could do about it.
October 3, 2018
That day will forever be in my heart. It was a hard time in my life, BUT GOD. As I sit here in tears(not as many as last year-yeeaaah) I can’t help but realize how much I have grown since that time. I have been able to talk about my Daddy and not go into an emotional downward spiral on the inside. October will probably always be my growth month because of “that” day. On that day a part of me died. On that day I learned, I was stronger than I thought. On that day I started a journey towards true freedom. On that day I realized how much God loved me. Because of that day, I can encourage so many others on this day.
Trouble don’t last always, my Daddy said
God has a plan, we just need to trust it, my Daddy said
All things work together, my Daddy said
Today is full off possibilities, my Daddy said
Thank you for taking the time to support THIS day in my life.
Beautiful Black Cat
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